I still remember the days you didn't feel the need to escape

I really want to be ther person who can say what she feels
and have no regret.
I hold myself back in fear of rejection.

I mean,do you sit back
watch someone hurt & learn?
or do you just let it happen like a car accident?

I guess you can't trully stop it.
Everything happens for a reason
and it's not my life to lead.

I do wish I could stop things from happening
but people shouldn't be protected...
you have to take chances.
Learn for yourself.

I suppose there was no point to this.
I just answered everything.
I just needed a space to spill it.

This is all about taking risks.
You don't want to look back
and wonder "what would happen if I had..?"
Im trying to make myself live on impulse.
but it's hard to switch from protecting yourself
to being out there and letting whatever may happen...happen.

Live&flow.

Watch the tide

& take note.

You have to learn to step back
let people fall and pick themselves back up
but always be there to kiss the wound.

I find it funny how we cheat ourselves out of living
everyone is guilty of it.
don't sit back and wonder what will happen.

Im sitting back and observing right now.
It's amazing.

I haven't been living all this.
but once you realize it could end in one fail swoop,
you love everything breath and every smile.

People learn.
Things change.

We'll be here till the end.

People amaze me.
everyday is a learning expirence.
take chances.learn.grow.

Paint the world for yourself.

Hips&cars

hopeful&hopeless

I hate seeing pain.
and being the cause of pain.

I want to see the smiles
& hear the laughter.

thoughts scare me.
as does sleep.

It's impossible to clear this head.
I know I shouldn't pretend.

I wish I could say everything that pops into my head.
and you would say everything you think.
Having everything out in the open is amazing.

I want to be able to sit down.
Tell you everything I've ever thought and not feel the need to take it all back.
I was that way.I can do it again.

I hate feeling like I can't say anything or do anything to help.
I can't help but feel responsible for the mood in the room.

I find no purpose in it.
but yet, I think it's needed.

I've found that I can solve everything with listening to a song.
or talking to a friend.

If I could, I would take everyone's burdens and put them all on me.
I can stand the pain in me.but not in others.


I really wish I could delete this all.
and start over.but hmm.

this isn't as pretty as I wish it could be.but I feel better.
and im ready to let go of this headache I've been holding in for three days.
I've found the cause.


Please live.